Wednesday, December 17, 2008
For all those who were disturbed by my last post, I deleated it. When we decided to have a child I was ready to devote my time energy, and patience toward our children, but I wasn't ready to be ugly. I wasn't mentally prepared for that. I thought it would go away after a few months of exercising, etc. Now it has been almost a year, and I haven't lost more than five pounds since a week after Daniel was born. I HATE IT!! I have done everything I can short of starving myself, use of laxatives, and exercise more than two hours a day ( I have been exercising two hours a day for a while). Well actually I somewhat starved myself for a week, but I just felt aweful - couldn't do it anymore. Anyways, a couple things I would appreciate are: if I eat a desert food don't look at me like you are discusted (I know it looks disgusting to see fat people eat treats, but please don't show it) and please don't talk to me about losing weight, I know how to do it (I graduated in exercise science, took like six nutrition classes, and am a certified personal trainer). Thanks.
Friday, November 21, 2008
Friday, November 7, 2008
Further Response to April
My cousin April posted on her blog about her desire to be a good mother and wife. I responded, but there is more I want to say. Lately I have been trying to figure out this new stage in life - very different than any before. I decided to sell Lia Sophia and Mary Kay to give me something to do for myself. Well, I have decided not to sell Mary Kay. I started for several reasons, and I am quiting for several reasons.
Starting: I started mostly because I really liked my recruiter, and because of who my director would be (her sister). My director, Holly, was in a similar situation as me when she started. She had post-pardom depression and needed something other than being a mom to give her meaning to life - a reason to get dressed every day, etc. She didn't even wear make-up before she started, but she did it anyway. As soon as she started she was unstopable. She lost her depression immediately and became successful. She has only been selling Mary Kay for two years and got her first pink Cadillac when I signed up!! This means she can teach me how to be that successful I thought! Ben says my eyes got too big - and he was right. I signed up dreaming about making tons of money and being really successful. I miss getting a feeling of success from working hard in school. Holly talked about being a stay-at-home mom and making lots of money at the same time, and I really wanted that.
Quiting: After spending hours at a booth in the fair and making tons of phone calls I was pretty discouraged that four out of six appointments re-scheduled, and then re-scheduled again. I also realized after a while that Holly must work a lot of hours to accomplish what she did. When I told her that I wanted to work a max of 10 hrs per week she just said that my hours and goals would probably change as time went on. Once she said that time is money, and I thought to myself, "that isn't at all how I see life for me." I realized that her proiorities weren't the same as mine. I have now realized that it takes a lot of time and organization to be successful at Mary Kay, and that isn't something I have to give to it. I am still going to sell Lia Sophia, but I don't mind it cause it is a lot easier to sell - a lot less preporation, and I feel it is easier to do as a hobby than Mary Kay. I am sad that we took a financial loss for me to find this out - I thought having a lot of inventory would be motivating for me, but I have learned that I am not motivated by feeling that I HAVE to do it. Luckily Mary Kay does buy back the products with just a 10% loss.
Anyways basically what I learned is that being a mom is what is most important - much more important than having nice things and massages right now (one of the main things I wanted to afford is a massage every other week). I truely charish each moment with Daniel. I really love spending as much time with him as possible. I am sad to admit that I thought I needed so much more
Starting: I started mostly because I really liked my recruiter, and because of who my director would be (her sister). My director, Holly, was in a similar situation as me when she started. She had post-pardom depression and needed something other than being a mom to give her meaning to life - a reason to get dressed every day, etc. She didn't even wear make-up before she started, but she did it anyway. As soon as she started she was unstopable. She lost her depression immediately and became successful. She has only been selling Mary Kay for two years and got her first pink Cadillac when I signed up!! This means she can teach me how to be that successful I thought! Ben says my eyes got too big - and he was right. I signed up dreaming about making tons of money and being really successful. I miss getting a feeling of success from working hard in school. Holly talked about being a stay-at-home mom and making lots of money at the same time, and I really wanted that.
Quiting: After spending hours at a booth in the fair and making tons of phone calls I was pretty discouraged that four out of six appointments re-scheduled, and then re-scheduled again. I also realized after a while that Holly must work a lot of hours to accomplish what she did. When I told her that I wanted to work a max of 10 hrs per week she just said that my hours and goals would probably change as time went on. Once she said that time is money, and I thought to myself, "that isn't at all how I see life for me." I realized that her proiorities weren't the same as mine. I have now realized that it takes a lot of time and organization to be successful at Mary Kay, and that isn't something I have to give to it. I am still going to sell Lia Sophia, but I don't mind it cause it is a lot easier to sell - a lot less preporation, and I feel it is easier to do as a hobby than Mary Kay. I am sad that we took a financial loss for me to find this out - I thought having a lot of inventory would be motivating for me, but I have learned that I am not motivated by feeling that I HAVE to do it. Luckily Mary Kay does buy back the products with just a 10% loss.
Anyways basically what I learned is that being a mom is what is most important - much more important than having nice things and massages right now (one of the main things I wanted to afford is a massage every other week). I truely charish each moment with Daniel. I really love spending as much time with him as possible. I am sad to admit that I thought I needed so much more
News
Halloween was lots of fun - I went to the ward party, but Ben couldn't make it cause he worked till like 6:00. Then we went to pick up a new dinning set that we found on Craig's list.
Last saturday was pretty fun - Me and several members of Ben's family spent several hours re-organizing our apartment. We just had too much stuff for the size. It certainly didn't help that we bought tons of books and movies at yard sales all summer. They were cheap, but they take up space. Also, we don't use our couch very much so we just got rid of it and put in our free chair we got from the girl that sold us the dinning set. It was really nice to get everything organized, and now we do a 25-20min. pick up every night to get rid of the daily clutter.
Ben is really enjoying his job and can't wait to graduate (in Dec. !!).
We looked at tons of options to move, but in the end decided to stay where we are and save up money for a year or two for a down payment for a house. But we got a dishwasher to satisfy me - I hope it gets hooked up soon!! I have been without one for like six years and I am finally at a breaking point. We found it on Craig's list too - we love surfing there.
Daniel is FINALLY enjoying some foods other than cereal. He likes bananas and sasage. Yesturday he seemed to like the peas, but the skin was too tough, and he gagged on it. Maybe I should try canned peas - or cook my frozen ones longer. He is also walking with a walker toy - I didn't take a picture yet, but he LOVES IT!! Ben's dad got it on video camera. We are planning on taking it to Washington for Thanksgiving so may family can see him run with it. I am sure he will just up and walk on his own anyday now.
Last saturday was pretty fun - Me and several members of Ben's family spent several hours re-organizing our apartment. We just had too much stuff for the size. It certainly didn't help that we bought tons of books and movies at yard sales all summer. They were cheap, but they take up space. Also, we don't use our couch very much so we just got rid of it and put in our free chair we got from the girl that sold us the dinning set. It was really nice to get everything organized, and now we do a 25-20min. pick up every night to get rid of the daily clutter.
Ben is really enjoying his job and can't wait to graduate (in Dec. !!).
We looked at tons of options to move, but in the end decided to stay where we are and save up money for a year or two for a down payment for a house. But we got a dishwasher to satisfy me - I hope it gets hooked up soon!! I have been without one for like six years and I am finally at a breaking point. We found it on Craig's list too - we love surfing there.
Daniel is FINALLY enjoying some foods other than cereal. He likes bananas and sasage. Yesturday he seemed to like the peas, but the skin was too tough, and he gagged on it. Maybe I should try canned peas - or cook my frozen ones longer. He is also walking with a walker toy - I didn't take a picture yet, but he LOVES IT!! Ben's dad got it on video camera. We are planning on taking it to Washington for Thanksgiving so may family can see him run with it. I am sure he will just up and walk on his own anyday now.
Thanks Mom!
Mom got this for me for my birthday, and I LOVE it!! One reason I was hesitant to scrapbook is because people usually don't see your amazing pages you work so hard on (and spent money), but when I saw this I couldn't resist - such a great way to display my artwork and my beautiful boy. And the cool thing is I painted it and glued on the words mysef.
Ben Feeding Daniel - This Doesn't Happen Very Often!
Daniel really loves his Daddy. Lately he wants Ben just about every chance he gets - it's really cute!
Ward Halloween Party
I forgot to put this in the Haloween post. Daniel and I with two cute little girls in my primary class - Daphne and Ivy
Halloween
Grandma Jo holding Daniel
He was a floppy dog for Halloween
The Kauer clan - The Halloween party is my favorite gettogether that we have with Ben's mom's family. Everyone dresses up (except me and ben this year) and we have a march of the costumes, a pinyata (spelling?), cake walk, bingo, watch The Legand of Sleepy Hollow, and lots of good food.
Sunday, October 19, 2008
News
Ben got his first sale - selling commercial insurance. Yay!!!! He is also close to getting a bunch more, but they wanted to finalize things next week - I mean this week.
I had my gallbladder taken out a couple of weeks ago, and I am doing great. I am still not at 100%, but close. I just can't exercise or lift Daniel for very long or my side starts hurting a bit. It really is amazing that they can make a few inch long slits and perform a surgery!!
Daniel is getting sooo tall! He is so cute! He FINALLY likes something other than cereal! He likes fresh banana and fresh carrot. He still doesn't like any Gerber food, but that is ok.
I had my gallbladder taken out a couple of weeks ago, and I am doing great. I am still not at 100%, but close. I just can't exercise or lift Daniel for very long or my side starts hurting a bit. It really is amazing that they can make a few inch long slits and perform a surgery!!
Daniel is getting sooo tall! He is so cute! He FINALLY likes something other than cereal! He likes fresh banana and fresh carrot. He still doesn't like any Gerber food, but that is ok.
Daniel's photoshoot
www.mistydawnphotos.com/gallery/DanielKauer/
Sunday, September 21, 2008
I've got to give credit where credit is due
Just wanted to let everyone know that most of the vacation pictures were taken by Chantal - my sister. She is really great at photography! Thanks sis...
Saturday, September 20, 2008
Back to Blogging
Well, I FINALLY got another post up! One reason we didn't get pictures up for a while is because we lost the charger for our camera. After some cleaning under the computer I found it today (with some help from Tanya - Ben's mom). Some things going on since I blogged last... I made freezer corn, canned peaches and canned apple sauce from apples in Ben's parent's yard. Ben's mom is a canning queen and helped me with everything. Also, I was in the E.R. the day my mom came to visit and drop of Squire to college. I was in pain for 14 hours before I wen to the hospital. I had experience similar pain about 5 times before, but it had never lasted this long. So, I have been doing testing to see what it is. It turns out I have gall stones and they think that is what is causing the pain. So, on Wed I go see the surgeon to talk about getting my gallbladder taken out. Luckily I haven't had any more pain for the past couple of weeks.
Ben still doesn't have a job, but he is looking diligently, and will hear early next week to see if he get a job selling insurance. He thinks he might really enjoy doing that - please pray for us! Ben needs a job!! We just need to get through the next few months till he graduates in December. Then he will hopefully have a job lined up in Boise.
Daniel is just cute as can be! He is a really fast crawler now, and into EVERYTHING!! He often searches the apartment for something he never noticed before. But it is really nice because he doesn't need me to entertain him very much. He is really a happy little guy. Right now he has a cold though.
Something I have been thinking about lately... I have a hard time wrapping my head around the truth that my Heavenly parents care for me as much as I care for Daniel. But I know it is true - just hard to understand when I cannot see them.
Ben still doesn't have a job, but he is looking diligently, and will hear early next week to see if he get a job selling insurance. He thinks he might really enjoy doing that - please pray for us! Ben needs a job!! We just need to get through the next few months till he graduates in December. Then he will hopefully have a job lined up in Boise.
Daniel is just cute as can be! He is a really fast crawler now, and into EVERYTHING!! He often searches the apartment for something he never noticed before. But it is really nice because he doesn't need me to entertain him very much. He is really a happy little guy. Right now he has a cold though.
Something I have been thinking about lately... I have a hard time wrapping my head around the truth that my Heavenly parents care for me as much as I care for Daniel. But I know it is true - just hard to understand when I cannot see them.
In his crib
Since he was in such a posing mood I decided to do another pose. These were taken after he was cleaned up from the high chair (the next set of pics).
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