For all those who were disturbed by my last post, I deleated it.  When we decided to have a child I was ready to devote my time energy, and patience toward our children, but I wasn't ready to be ugly.  I wasn't mentally prepared for that.  I thought  it would go away after a few months of exercising, etc.  Now it has been almost a year, and I haven't lost more than five pounds since a week after Daniel was born.  I HATE IT!!  I have done everything I can short of starving myself, use of laxatives, and exercise more than two hours a day ( I have been exercising two hours a day for a while).  Well actually I somewhat starved myself for a week, but I just felt aweful - couldn't do it anymore.  Anyways, a couple things I would appreciate are: if I eat a desert food don't look at me like you are discusted (I know it looks disgusting to see fat people eat treats, but please don't show it) and please don't talk to me about losing weight, I know how to do it (I graduated in exercise science, took like six nutrition classes, and am a certified personal trainer).  Thanks.